WHAT TO DO, WHAT TO DO.

So it’s coming down to the wire here for me soon, I am going to have to essentially, barbecue or mildew. I have to decide whether to renew my contract or not. I also have to get very serious about my GMAT preparation. There are times when I think maybe I won’t go back to school, and maybe I won’t renew my contract, but then lets look at the options there. When I went to college I decided to get a degree in Fashion Design, I am not complaining and I would not change that because I love fashion, however I have now been regulated to only get jobs that have me working as a store manager. I think I have great life experience, I have owned my own business, I have worked in the corporate world, and I have traveled. That still only allows me to work as a store manager. When I left my last job doing that same kind of work I told myself I would not go back. The long hours, the shitty customers, the pressure to constantly have your store pull in some ridiculous number that is no longer realistic in a down economy. So here would be my option if I didn’t renew, I would move back to Florida and get a job similiar to the one I left and I would fall right back into it. My sister asked me this question last night, am I deciding to renew based on fear or excitement. If its fear then no, if its excitement then yes. If I decided not to renew it would be based on fear. I fear that I am falling behind with my peers, I fear that I won’t meet a guy, I fear that my niece won’t know who I am. I am not excited to return to Florida, I am not excited to get a job doing something I don’t want to, I am not excited about dating in Florida, and I am not excited to have to make friends all over again. So I guess I have answered my own question. I will renew, I will take the GMAT and apply to Business School, I will get my yoga certification in May 2015, and I will learn Spanish and play the piano, because all of those things scare me in an exciting way.