Author: Sarah Silberstein

  • A lot of teaching and a lot of playing

    How is it already February 20th? I’ve tried to slow time down…oddly, it’s not working. I’m living this life and things seem to be happening in warp speed, yet when I think of events that occurred 4 months ago, it feels like it’s been years. I’ve never experienced this feeling to that magnitude.

    As stated in the previous blog, I promised I would pick up where I left off…our trip from Koh Phi Phi to Phuket. After an hour and a half of sleep, I shockingly coerce myself out of bed.  Half asleep and possibly still slightly intoxicated, I manage to pack the rest of my belongings into my oversized bag (between this blog and the last one, this bag shamefully makes a bigger cameo than some of my friends do). We say a quick goodbye to the other hostel mates and our dear Carter and walk aimlessly back to the pier…this time, sparing ourselves and paying to get our luggage transported. Moving slowly and looking rough, we board the ferry. We agree the next few days will be spent not overindulging in copious amounts of alcohol. After 2 long, sleepless hours, we arrive in Phuket and find the van that will be taking us to our hotel…secretly I’m hoping it will drive me straight to Pathum Thani so I can sleep in my own bed for the next 48 hours. We arrive to the hotel, transport our luggage into the room, praise the heavens above for this lovely room, crawl under the covers and rapidly fall asleep. 8 hours later, we wake up and decide to scour the 7-Eleven for chocolate milk and toasties…and apples and hardboiled eggs…and banana muffins and yogurt (sometimes you’d think we were planning for the apocalypse). It goes without saying, we were famished. I message a few of the girls from our TESOL course and explain that we won’t be able to make it out tonight, we’ve wiped ourselves out and my body was on strike. I can feel myself getting sick. They’re a bit disappointed but they understand. I’m excited to see them though and can’t wait to hear how their holiday has been, so I climb the flight of stairs, knock on their door and find a seat on the floor so we can exchange holiday stories. Our words are flowing like wine, intermittent with bursts of laughter and incessant interjections of the word, “REALLY?!” These are my life friends…I love them with every ounce of my being! A few other people show up and the room fills with love and laughter. Eventually, I break myself away from the group and wander back down to our glorious hotel room (probably just average by normal standards but the best we’ve stayed at so far) eat a few snacks, I somehow find my way back to the delightful bed and wrap myself tightly in the soft, immaculate comforter…sleep finds me instantly.

    We wake up the following morning and surf the TV hoping to come across something in English…we are in luck. There is a movie channel playing mediocre American movies. We spend majority of the morning and part of the afternoon being lazy. Our friends are at one of the beaches nearby so we dress accordingly and pay an exorbitant amount to be transported there. We walk along the beach and quickly stumble upon our friends. I lay my sarong on the warm, soft sand, pull out my book, put in my headphones and relax under the hot sun. A few hours pass like this when someone asks Anne (who lives in Phuket) for suggestions on where to eat. She conjures up a few ideas that will allow us to overlook the ocean and watch the sun go down. We pile into a songtaew and head towards food. Sadly the food is subpar at best, but the view and the company is unbeatable! I order a glass of wine…a rarity in this country because it is more expensive than most drinks…I cherish every sip. This will be the only drink I have until January 30th (for those counting, that’s 4 weeks…but shamefully, we did not make it the entire month). The sun begins to set and we try and capture this breathtaking beauty in a picture…unsuccessfully. I don’t know what it is but the sun and moon are so much more beautiful on this side of the world. I don’t know if it is science or psychology, but there is something mesmerizing about both of them. Conversation begins to die down and glasses become empty. We take this as our sign to go back to the hotel. I have to break the news to our friends again that we will not be going out and once again they understand. The bed is calling my name and I’m delighted to embrace it.

    The following morning is similar to the previous one…surfing channels on the TV. We debate whether or not we should do any extracurricular activities but resort to walking to Patong Beach, swimming in the warm, blue water, watching the old men waddle around in their speedos and the women gallivant around topless…while we bask under the sun for a few hours (not topless…just to clarify). Carly, Anna and Anne meet up with us just as we are leaving the beach…it’s time to determine our next move. Someone throws out the idea of purchasing tickets to a lady boy show and I’m not opposed. The adorable British couple we met in Koh Phi Phi had suggested seeing one so we were more inclined to humor the idea. We haggle with a lady for tickets that include transportation from our hotel to the show. We make the long, hot walk back to the hotel and begin to get ready.

    My sickness is progressing and I’m not elated at the idea of spending any time away from our heavenly bed, but I want to spend time with my friends. I do a little internal pep talk and convince myself to climb into the van when it arrives. The van drives away from the hotel and after a few stops to pick up others along the way, we pull up to the destination, crawl out of the van and find our seats in the theatre. At this point, I have no idea what to expect for this upcoming performance, but I’m intrigued nonetheless. Within minutes, the show begins. How can I politely describe this show? It wasn’t what I was expecting and unless you’ve been to one, it’s probably nothing like the images you’ve formed in your mind as you read this. It was rather boring…I realize it’s possible that’s the sickness and lack of sufficient sleep talking, but I think I was expecting something a bit more…racy and risqué…neither of which happened. There were a plethora of men dressed up as women performing various skits. To be fair, a few of them were comical and very creative but again, I was expecting something a bit different. It’s interesting how expectations can impact the outcome of things. Sadly I kept falling asleep on my propped up hand. The show ends and I jolt awake to sounds of clapping and laughter. We walk outside and are pushed to take pictures with the performers…200 THB (about $6) per picture. If I added it up correctly, we ended up spending about $24 collectively for the same pictures because several of us had given our phones to have the pictures taken for us…we clearly didn’t plan that one out in a logical manner.

    The van drives us back to the hotel and AGAIN I tell my friends I am unable to go out. Lauren and I walk along the street searching profusely for a rotee…a rotee is exactly what I need…and a bed. After a long 15 minute walk, we give up hope on the idea of finding a rotee…but I know exactly where to find the bed.

    We wake up the following morning, turn on the TV and begin discussing plans for our last day in Phuket. Check out is at noon but our flight back home isn’t until 8:00PM. We check out but leave our belongings with the hotel, so we pack up our computers and walk to Starbucks where I blog for hours…my thoughts are running rampant and I need to get everything down before I forget even minute details. Time flies by and we are growing increasingly hungry. We search for the pizza place Carly, Anna and Anne had suggested days before. We finally arrive and although the place is empty, I’m excited to indulge in some Italian food. We order a margarita pizza and the most basic cheese and penne pasta dish…and it’s fabulous. I contemplate ordering another dish for the trip home. We still have a few hours until we have to leave for the airport so we just sit and talk mindlessly…and I begin to reflect on the events of the past week. I am full of unfamiliar emotions and they are impossible to contain. I break down and cry to these two girls who have seen me in every state of emotion. More often than not, I don’t know what provokes the tears…there are a myriad of emotions all the time…they are so raw and real and deep…and unfamiliar. As time progresses in this country, I’ve become more familiar with these emotions. A couple of weeks after our vacation, I came across this article that has resonated with me on a great level. There are some parts of this article that I have not experienced yet and a few I have not mastered yet. I suggest anyone interested in moving overseas or anyone who has moved overseas or anyone who wants to know what my life is like, this article is a must-read! I’ve read it more times than I can count.

    This is seriously one of my favorite articles…ever!
    http://masedimburgo.com/2014/06/04/17-things-change-forever-live-abroad/

    Arriving back home in Pathum Thani was both depressing and liberating. We were going back to normalcy…but we were going back to NORMALCY. No more beaches, no more holiday romances, no more running up a flight of stairs to chat mindlessly with my friends who are currently scattered throughout this country and no more channel surfing on the only TV that has offered American movies. I will forever remember that week of bliss.

    A week after being home, my sickness had not gotten any better. I will spare the details but I was fairly certain I had a sinus infection. While the students were taking the midterm exam, Sara (who was also feeling under the weather) and I went to the local hospital. I paid 389 THB (less than $12) to see the doctor and for medication he prescribed. I recovered within days and promised myself I would not go that hard again. The excessive drinking and lack of sleep had gotten the best of me.

    Things continued to get back to normal and the students were just as charming and entertaining as ever. At the end of one class, one of my boys (about 16 years old) came up to me with a small, folded up piece of paper. He handed me the paper and asked me what it meant (in broken English). I opened the piece of paper to the word “masturbate”. Instinctively I shrieked loudly, “No, Tae (the boy’s nickname)!” his rebuttal “Not me, Teacher!” as he attempted to elicit that he “found” the piece of paper at his desk. I was taken aback…it was a good thing the class was over because I was flustered beyond words. Every time I tell this story, people ask me if I told him what it meant; and every time I roll my eyes and secretly wonder if they are joking.

    And then I have my boys who watched me drink water from a big water bottle and proceeded to ask me if it was alcohol which progressed to us joking and laughing about “taker backs” (which I inferred was similar to shots of whiskey…we can’t know). They found such enjoyment from it; it was hard not to laugh with them. I’m a wonderful teacher, I know (laying the sarcasm on thick), but if you were in my position, you would have done the same (or possibly not). The boys and I bonded over that and now we laugh together all the time! The girls are mostly angels while the boys are troublemakers. A few weeks ago, I had one of my 12 year old boys run around the classroom with his shirt off. Watching him try to explain himself was both confusing and entertaining. Most of my classes are outside with only a short, cement wall to separate my students from the classroom to the grass and dirt beyond. Apparently while my back was turned, he had jumped the wall and was playing around in the dirt. I was so baffled the only thing I knew to do was take a picture.


    Not all of the boys are troublemakers though. There is one boy in particular who comes into the office on a regular basis, his nickname is Ovaltine. He isn’t one of my students but we talk (and sing together) on a daily basis and he actually gave me the sweetest Valentine’s Day card, of which was delivered to me by a young girl wearing a sweatshirt that said, “Don’t Mess With Texas!” on the back…these are the little things in life that make me undeniably happy!

    Of all the Thai people I have met in this country, my students are the ones that amaze me the most. That is likely an obvious statement considering I see these students regularly, but there is this purity to them that is so genuine and inspiring. I was walking up the stairs one day when one of my boys reached out his hand to take my bag. I knew I couldn’t decline his offer. I sheepishly handed it over…I’m not even used to boyfriends carrying my bags, much less my wonderful children carrying them for me. It’s these moments that I never want to forget. I’m so afraid of them escaping my mind. The realization that the semester is coming to an end is hitting me like a brick wall. I’m doing everything I can to hold onto each moment with these children…like taking random pictures and videos at various times of the class period.

    On a side note, I have learned almost all of my students nicknames…all 250+ of them…which was not an easy feat at all!

    A few weeks after being home from Koh Phi Phi and Phuket, we decided it was time to plan another trip, so we set our eyes on Ayutthaya. Ayutthaya is about an hour van ride from Pathum Thani and costs a mere 40 THB (or about $1.25) per person to get there. Transportation costs still flummox me even after living here for almost 5 months. A taxi ride from the local mall to our home can cost upwards of 80 THB which is about a 15 minute drive…still not expensive, it just surprises me how the prices can differ so greatly. The only difficulty with taking vans anywhere is a matter of figuring out how to get to the final destination. The vans make periodic stops along the way so the challenge was to find the correct stop…a task left up to me for this particular trip. Google Maps is often times unreliable in this country but I put the hotel address into my phone all the same. I followed the blue dot on the map and determined we needed to stop sooner rather than later and just wave down a taxi to take us directly to the hotel. The second stop in Ayutthaya, we climbed out of the van and found some Thai men…really they found us…who rounded up a 3-wheeled tuk tuk to take us to the hotel. 100 THB and 10 minutes later, we stopped at the intersection of a side street and a main road. We began the short walk down the side street to our hotel, checked in and were escorted to our room. This was the first room to have a couch…not that we used it for anything aside from being a makeshift closet, but we were still a bit surprised. Considering we still weren’t drinking, we decided to spend the evening in the hotel room playing Heads Up and laughing incessantly…two activities we do regularly.

    The following morning, we set a plan to rent some bicycles and explore Ayutthaya. Ayutthaya is such a magnificent, relatively small city full of ancient history and so much beauty…and more westerns than we anticipated on seeing.  We stopped by a western restaurant for breakfast, rented some bikes and asked the French owner for suggestions on which temples were most highly favored. He pointed out a few, we located our bicycles and we prepared to make our journey to our first temple in Ayutthaya. I can’t recall how long it had been since my last bike ride but certainly I remembered how to ride a bike, right?! I confidently walked up to my bike, ready to lead the way. I grabbed the handlebars and tried to kick the kickstand back…it didn’t budge…I tried again, this time with more force…I don’t even think it moved. I was laughing awkwardly because neither of the girls are having difficulty with theirs. A boy half my size and looking to be no older than 8-years-old walked up and fiercely kicked the kickstand back…success on the first try. My mouth dropped open and my eyes grew to the size of gumballs…”impressive” is the only word that came to mind…this obviously wasn’t his first rodeo. We climbed onto our bikes and began our ride. I don’t remember loving riding bicycles when I was younger the way I loved riding this bike. It was so freeing and exhilarating and cathartic.  Sometimes I wish I lived in Ayutthaya just so I could ride a bicycle regularly. We weaved in and out of traffic, accidentally cycled onto sidewalks and eventually stopped at one wat (which means “temple”) and began exploring. The initial plan was to break apart for about 15 minutes where we could take our own individual pictures but meet up to take pictures collectively at the end of that time frame. About 5 minutes in, we ran into one another and never separated again. I guarantee that when these girls and I finally separate for good, I will have separation anxiety and withdrawals at a very real level. We spent the next few hours wandering around. The hours passed quickly. We ate lunch nearby and walked to the next temple across the street from the first one. We took our time and enjoyed every moment. After the second temple, we went back to the hotel so we could relax for a while before we took our long bike ride to take sunset pictures at one of the bigger temples. An hour later, we changed clothes and headed out for our next adventure. Map in hand, I lead the way. I was confident I knew how to get there…yet a few miles in, we found ourselves lost. I had no idea where the temple was in reference to our location. The sun was setting quickly and I knew it wasn’t a good idea for us to be riding our bicycles after dark (sometimes these drivers are crazy). We stopped at one of the temples we had passed and proceeded with our sunset pictures. We climbed back on our bikes and headed in the direction of the hotel and happily stumbled our way into the doors of The Pizza company where we finished the day by eating pizza and drinking ice cold Pepsi. My heart was happy.

    The temples are abundant in this remarkable city. The girls and I knew we would not be able to see all of them while we were in Ayutthaya, but we have plans to go back and I hope we follow through. The following day, we contemplated venturing off to a few of the temples the French owner had suggested or taking a river tour around the city. Unfortunately the river tour wasn’t an option due to timing conflicts, but we ran into just the right person who offered to take us around the city for 3 hours and only charge us 300 THB. He took us to several different locations where we took an endless amount of photos, fed sheep, ate while sitting on the floor and bought more souvenirs. The day was coming to an end and we needed to get home. We finally made our way back to the hotel where we rounded up all of our belongings and made the short walk down the road to the van that would take us back to Pathum Thani.

    Points worth mentioning:

    I don’t remember the first student who took the bold leap and sent me a Facebook friend request, but it happened…and now I get friend requests from students on a daily basis…students who aren’t even MY students. Don’t get me wrong, I love these kids, but there’s only so much that I want them to see about my personal life. One of my girls sent me a friend request and the following day proceeded to say, “Teacher sexy!”

    They now know I don’t appreciate when they use that word, so they say, “Teacher lovely.” It’s endearing and I know it’s my fault for allowing them full access to my profile…oh well (I literally just got another friend request from a student this very moment)!

    On 1/26/15 (yes, I documented the day), I drove one of the Thai assistant’s car…with Lauren as my co-captain and videographer. This was my first time to drive in this country and this was the first time I’ve ever driven on the left side of the road (legally). I was honored that she let me drive and I was secretly proud of my driving skills, but I think I gave the two other Thai assistants in the car a mild heart attack.

    Lately, our weekends have been a bit more tame. We have seen a couple of movies in the theatre…one of which was 50 Shades of Grey (slightly awkward)…and the other was American Sniper which evoked a lot of emotions on more than one level. I will say it is awe-inspiring to watch a movie filled with so much patriotism while you are outside of your own country. The nostalgia becomes so real you can feel it through every inch of your soul. It didn’t help much that the movie was largely centered around Texas…

    The last weekend in January we attended a pool party at a beautiful sky rise location with a pool overlooking the vast skyline of Bangkok. The water was too cold to swim but the weather was just right to dance the night away and meet more amazing people from all over the world! I don’t know how I’ll ever be comfortable going back to a life where this kind of thing isn’t a regular occurrence…and I’m certainly not referring to the pool party…that’s just an added bonus.

    The following weekend, Sara and I joined Carter and two of his friends at a beer festival in Bangkok. The scene, the food, the people and the beer were perfect…especially the beer! The first sip of having a truly good beer aside from the standard Chang, Leo or Singha was a memorable moment! We lounged on our bean bags, drank various types of beer and played a few games of Heads Up (a highly addictive game) before Sara and I got a cab back home.

  • Adventures in Koh Phi Phi

    I’ve always been told I think too much…my thoughts are like that hamster on its wheel, running incessantly at all hours of the day. You take it away from the wheel only for it to jump back on moments later. These are my thoughts…they stop briefly…only to start back up with a vengeance. This has proven to be both a blessing and a curse.  I’m halfway certain I wouldn’t be in Thailand if it weren’t for my ceaseless thoughts; however, they are proving to be a curse right now. I can’t appreciate things when I’m constantly thinking about what’s to come. I could learn a thing or two from the Buddhist religion (of which I’ve shamefully learned virtually nothing about since arriving in Thailand). The closer we creep to the end of the semester, the more the girls and I are figuring out that we will likely be parting ways come May or June. This is the most daunting thought of them all, which is baffling to me. I assumed I would come to Thailand and become even more independent than I already was. Now I’ve turned into a codependent, rarely-does-anything-on-her-own, needy girl. This both pleases and aggravates me. I’ve thoroughly enjoyed turning into the independent woman over the years who genuinely appreciates and needs alone time and relishes doing things on her own. And then on the other hand, I have established an unbreakable, life-lasting bond with two of the most amazing girls I’ve ever been lucky enough to know. This leads me to my next set of thoughts. I have NO IDEA where I’m going after Thailand. NOT A CLUE! As an outsider, it’s easy to say “you have time”, but it’s not that easy. These things take time and need plans to be able to follow through properly. Plane tickets need to be purchased, visas need to be acquired at the right time, and paperwork needs to be filled out. I’m a few months shy of turning 28 (I’m still not certain how or when that happened) and I plan on going back to America and changing my profession when everything is said and done, but I’m not ready for that. Therefore, I’m putting off something that will impact me in the long run. “Follow my instinct”, you say? My instinct leads me to continue to explore the world. I would die happy if I could explore the world for the rest of my life, but a vacation alone doesn’t fill that yearning desire to get to know other cultures, other standards of living, and other languages. A vacation doesn’t give you the ability to watch the baby living in your apartment complex grow up, recognize your face and smile every time you walk up and ultimately watch this same child begin to walk. I’m living my dream to its entirety and then some…and I’m not ready to wake up. I want this to go on forever…and my heart is leading me in various directions…but I can feel it veering more and more towards Europe. Now that I’ve gotten that off of my chest…Christmas abroad was entertaining to say the least. I knew in advance that I would be working on Christmas day, but I did not mind because we were just going to be participating in school activities. I assumed those activities would consist of manning the ice cream booth, chatting with students and watching them in their various performances. What the day actually consisted of was dancing merrily to the “Chicken Dance” with the other foreign teachers and “Jingle Bell Rock” with Lauren and Sara. Only in Thailand would I be assigned the task to co-choreograph a dance for “Jingle Bell Rock” the day before we were expected to perform.  1.) I’m a pretty horrible dancer 2.) I’ve never been known for my creative side (it’s lacking substantially) 3.) I’ve never been in charge of choreographing a dance and 4.) the only one with any dance experience (Sara) was sick that day. It was officially up to Lauren (who suffers from the same inability to dance and choreograph) and me to come up with a dance worthy of performing in front of 100s of students. This was bound to be a sight for sore eyes. We ventured off to one of the vacant classrooms with our phones in tow. Our best hope was to try and steal bits and pieces from other “Jingle Bell Rock” dances we found on YouTube. If I can be candid, even that was too difficult. After watching one video in particular numerous times to attempt to adopt the moves, Lauren and I looked at each other, shook our heads in unison and decided to come up with most of the cheesy, immature moves on our own. After about 6 hours of working diligently, we realized we had done the best we could. Later that evening, we taught the dance to Sara (who memorized the moves within 30 minutes). In addition to our trio dance, we were expected to learn a dance with some of our Thai students that preceded ours…thank goodness we had time to practice beforehand because my mind had shut down from all the work I put into our measly dance.  The following day, Christmas morning, we performed the “Chicken Dance” on stage in front of our 3,000 students. I was dressed as Mrs. Claus to accompany Santa Claus (the Governor of Pathum Thani) while he shelled out dozens of 20 BHT notes to the students and teachers from the stage. The words “make it rain” indubitably come to mind every time I recall this debacle.  Thankfully Lauren and Sara have portions of this event caught on camera. We performed our dance with the three of us later that day. Many of the students also performed their own dances in groups and individually. Sadly the students didn’t love our dance near as much as they enjoyed the student who broke out into breakdancing throughout his performance. I can’t really blame them…his dance was pretty awesome!

    Christmas evening, we put on our jeans, antler ears and red shirts to attend a party at the same muddy arena where the Loy Kratong event was held. We drank, we ate, we laughed and we danced. This was the first time we’ve gotten the whole foreign department together for a night out and it was a glorious evening. Drunk and happy, we headed home to scrounge a few things together before we departed for Koh Phi Phi the following day.
    The day had finally arrived for our long awaited trip down south. We left school a couple of hours early to make a few last-minute packing decisions and catch our flight to Krabi on time.  I intend to offend no one that I have vacationed with in the past, but this was quite possibly the best vacation of my life (at least top 5). How does one classify that? I don’t know. All I know is that it was amazing. The details of this holiday are as followed…this is going to be long and story-esque, and for those of you who don’t know me, oh how I wish I could be in your head as you read this…for those of you who do know me…sorry??

    After an hour and a half flight, the girls and I arrive in Krabi on Friday evening, December 26th. We initially intended to spend 4 days in Koh Phi Phi and then meet some of our friends from the TESOL course in Phuket to ring in the New Year…but of course plans change…as we have experienced on more than one occasion in Thailand. Our van pulls up merely a 100 meters shy of the hotel in Krabi, we check in, purchase our ferry tickets for the upcoming week and haul our stuff down the stairs and into our room. The hotel was rather unpleasant…carrying a lingering, putrid smell of old sewage targeted specifically in the restroom. We spend the evening relaxing…trying to prepare ourselves for the next week of debauchery that was about to ensue. We wake up, travel a block down to eat a western breakfast and get ready for our ferry departure to Koh Phi Phi at 12PM. Like the rest of the travels we’ve done to the islands and other touristy areas, we are constantly surrounded by a plethora of westerners. It is one of my favorite things about this whole experience…meeting people from all over the world. We like to play a constant game of “Guess Where They Are From”. Ears perked like a dog’s, we listen closely to the accents scattered around us (as though I could truly distinguish the origin). We play this game quite a bit on the ferry ride over…probably being wrong in our assumptions every time. The ferry trip takes about 2 hours to get there. We cruise up to the island and slowly inch closer to the breathtaking views…the standard, typical views you think of when you think of the islands in Thailand. This beauty will never escape me and never ceases to amaze me. We dock the island, grab our oversized, far too heavy luggage and hurry along through the heaps of people…staring…no gawking…at the exorbitant amount of beautiful people on the island. I was in a constant state of shock and awe. I knew the Tinder game was going to be on point, yet likely ineffective…I just didn’t know how much it would change the course of this vacation… We’ll come back to this later.

    Day 1 in Koh Phi Phi: Koh Phi Phi is unlike any of the islands we have been to so far. By that, I mean geographically speaking and the way the roads are made up. We are accustomed to small islands that are beautiful with equally as beautiful beaches but that have roads to maneuver your way around these islands…roads that require a taxi, tuk tuk or songtaew of some sort.  The roads in Phi Phi allow no such thing. Walking is your only form of transportation except for the occasional motorized carts carrying injured partygoers. If I can be honest, the roads were quite awful. As per imagined, it rains fairly frequently in Thailand, especially along the islands (small fact: Koh Phi Phi is where the tsunami hit in 2004). With all that rain, comes uneven surfaces, pot holes filled with water and residual mud stuck incessantly to the back of your clothing. Trying to lug around a 62 pound bag (Sara and I packed together because we thought it was the financially sound thing to do) over these unpaved trails was both aggravating and exhausting. Unbeknownst to us, Sara and I could have paid a mere 50 BHT to have the luggage transported for us. We arrive to the small, 5-room hotel, climb the awkward stairs with our abnormally heavy luggage and open the door to our new home for the next 4 nights. The room has one twin bed and one full-sized bed. One thing I’ve noticed as we check into each of these hotels at our various holiday spots is that none of us ever complain about having to sleep with each other. I typically despise sleeping with people but I’ve become so accustomed to it over the past few months that it doesn’t bother me at all. They are both very easy people to sleep with. Anyways, we unpack a few things and change into our bathing suits to go explore this new (to us), glorious island.  As aforementioned, this island is our first encounter with the breathtaking rock formations.  We saunter over to the beach to get a true glimpse of these formations from the other side of the island. I immediately strip down to my bathing suit top and shorts, sit down in the wet sand and stare ahead, for how long, I can’t remember. I take off my shorts and start walking into the water. The depth of the water on this side of the island stays shallow, going no higher than my waist, for quite a ways. I wish I could explain how far in meters or feet but I can’t begin to describe…maybe the size of a football field…or two?…we can’t know. I didn’t walk far out enough to see when it actually began to get deep.  I would later find out that the tide goes back very far at night; I assume that’s why it stays shallow for so long. I continue to walk through this crystal clear, warm, shallow water, I step onto a small sandy island and continue to walk. I walk until a neon green kayak carrying two attractive, young, foreign men creeps closer and closer to me. They stop just short of where I’m standing, smile up at me and with their enchanting, slightly slurred accents and ask me if I want to join them on their exploration…what they were exploring, I’m not quite sure. Naturally I’m tempted, very tempted, but with these years, comes wisdom. After a few brief moments of pondering their offer, I decide not to join. I’m pleased I say no because I’m quite certain they tipped that neon green kayak shortly after I declined their invitation. I scamper back to the beach where I meet up with the girls again. We walk along the shore taking various, stereotypical photos of anything and everything.

    We eventually take the short walk back to the hotel and begin to get ready for the evening. At this point, it was still just the 3 of us girls on the island. None of our other friends had arrived just yet. We shower and try our best to look pretty, intermittently drinking from our water bottles mixed with cheap vodka from 7-Eleven, Red Bull and Sprite. We walk around the island trying to find the prime location and ultimately make our way to the beach. After a brief stroll on the beach and a little bit of dancing, we arrive at Slinky’s (a beach bar that would later become one of our frequent stomping grounds for the remainder of the trip). Needing a change of scenery, we decide to head over to Banana bar (another one of the bars that I would soon fall in love with). We climb the spiral, narrow staircase to the greatness that would await us. I look to my right and there was a table conveniently waiting for someone to participate in some beer pong. Being one of my favorite drinking games back home, I had to indulge. I hand the waiter my 500 BHT note and wait for the change and our beers. We meet a couple of Canadians who participate in a round or two with us. The previous, long week begins to wear on me. I was in need of some sleep. We begin walking home, until we arrive just outside of our hotel, or just outside of a pizza stand, to be more precise. We order a few slices of pizza, scarf them down and then I stagger up the stairs and into bed.
    Day 2 in Koh Phi Phi:After about 5 hours of insufficient sleep, my body decides it’s time to wake up. I open my sleep-filled eyes and play on my phone until the girls begin to stir beside me. I come across a photo of Phi Phi Viewpoint on Facebook and decide it’s a requirement to explore this one for ourselves. We mosey around for a while in the hotel room and then venture off to get some food from 7-Eleven (a very typical place to purchase breakfast). We eat our breakfast and follow the signs (more like posters used with Sharpies) to begin our hike up the steep hill to view both sides of the beach in one setting.

    To add to our infinite supply of photos with the 3 of us girls, we ask an adorable British couple to take our picture with the unforgettable scene as our background. We sit and chat with the couple for a while giving and receiving suggestions on each of our upcoming travels. After a couple of hours, we travel back down the massive hill and begin our search for lunch. We stop at a place selling western and Thai food in between the Viewpoint and our hotel.  Sara and I order some vegetables with oyster sauce and rice, while Lauren orders some oatmeal. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I am insatiable in this country when it comes to food. Anyways, we eat, our other friend, Kirstie, shows up, we chat for a while and then head back to the room. We catch up a bit more in the room and then politely usher Kirstie out so we can take a nap and be adequately prepared to go out again that evening. Two hours later, we awake from our slumber and once again begin to get ready. I’ve surprisingly gotten used to trying to get ready in a small, cramped room with two other girls at one time, it’s not so bad…it probably helps that I love them as much as I do. Kirstie arrives back to our room just shy of 7:30PM. We finish applying the final touches of our outfits for the evening and leave for dinner. We stop at the Banana bar and eat one of the better meals we will have on the island. We share a couple of buckets, pay and leave in search of our next adventure. Being the smart, cheap girls we are, we walk to the nearest Fresh Mart to grab a few drinks and hang out on the steps to people watch…or let’s be real, to gape at beautiful men. As I mentioned before, the roads aren’t real roads and there also aren’t many roads at all. That being said, you run into the same people…frequently…or in this case you run into someone you recognize from Tinder. I’m standing on the steps chatting with the girls…and all of a sudden I hear my name being uttered by a male’s voice, “Hillary?” I look over at a group of 4 guys walking down the road toward our direction. I search the database in my brain as quickly as possible, smile, my face turns 5 shades of crimson, and I say, “Bob?”  He smiles in acknowledgement, they stop in front of us and we all begin to break off into conversation in small groups. I’ve never met a Tinder match this way and I’m completely taken aback by it. Shortly into the conversation, one of his friends asks me how we knew each other. I smirk and look in Bob’s direction, who is standing further down talking to Sara and Lauren. “Bob, how do we know each other?” I ask. My smile gets bigger, eagerly awaiting his response. It’s always interesting to see how people say they met people from Tinder. He also smirks and without skipping a beat says, “We met in New York.” The quick, easy response was perfect!  I laugh loudly and begin to explain that we met on Tinder. Everyone laughs briefly; we shrug it off and continue talking. The conversations begin to taper off and we agree to try and meet up later. My friends and I continue to gallivant our way through the streets of Koh Phi Phi off to Slinky’s again. Around 1:00AM, we meet up with Bob and his friends, dance, drink and close the place down. Approaching the wee hours of the morning yet again, we walk Kirstie back to her bungalow located in the boonies of Koh Phi Phi and make the 10 minute walk back to the hotel. We have officially called it a night.

    Day 3 in Koh Phi Phi:

    After yet another night of restless sleep, we agree that we would like to have a low-key day spent lounging under the sun. We hop into our bathing suits and cover-ups, make our morning visit to 7-Eleven for our standard breakfast consisting of yogurt, hard boiled eggs and water. We head towards the pier, purchase a 100BHT ticket and get in our first long tail boat to take the 10 minute trip over to Long Beach. We read, swim and hang out on the beach until a storm forces us to the nearby restaurant. We hang out there, eat our overpriced, mediocre meals and take the long tail boat back to the pier. Continuing down our list of pampering items, we decide to get a basic, local, Thai massage…

    Now I’ll begin to describe the weirdest massage I’ve ever had…Dad, you should probably stop reading this next paragraph.  The first place we entered said that we would need to wait an hour to get our massage. Knowing that there were an abundance of massage parlors to go to, we walk a 100 meters down to the next place. This massage parlor had far more curtains…which should have been my first clue, but we walk in anyways. The 3 of us girls are escorted into a portion of the room blocked off by curtains with 3 masseuses (assuming that’s what you’d call them). In broken English, they tell us to strip down to our undergarments. After we’ve done this, they say something that meant “take off your tops and turn on your stomach”. I’m a little apprehensive at this point, but I oblige. They begin the typical massage starting at the back of our legs and moving up to our shoulders. While I’m still on my stomach, I turn my head and see that the curtain to our area is opened slightly and people are walking by with easy access to peer in at any point. The ladies politely tell us to turn over and we do as we are instructed.  They cover our chests with a small, hand towel and begin to massage our legs and arms…then my girl starts to massage my stomach. I’m 99% certain I’ve never had anyone massage my stomach. She then gracefully pulls the towel from my chest. At this point, I’m rigid. I cover my chest with my left arm assuming she is just temporarily taking the towel away. She then begins to massage in between my breasts ultimately forcing my arm away. I am officially uncomfortable and wonder, “is this standard?” I open my eyes and look to my left. Sara is in the same predicament and not expressing an ounce of concern…if I recall correctly, she actually looked quite relaxed. At this point, I’m receiving a full on breast massage. I look to the right and Lauren too has a towel missing from her chest and her breasts are also being massaged…she is also expressing no concern. I realize I need to just relax and say, “Mai pen rai”. I notice a camera facing the entrance to the massage parlor and determine it’s quite possible they have this whole encounter on film. I wait anxiously for the massage to end, never reaching a real state of relaxation. I can’t wait to discuss this whole affair with the girls…out of earshot.   A small suggestion to any females planning on getting a massage in Koh Phi Phi…tell them you want to leave your top on…unless bare breast massages are your thing. As for the men, I’m not quite sure what to expect there. After the massage, we spent 150BHT (about 5 USD) for a fairly decent pedicure…my first pedicure in Thailand…of which I ruined during my nap later that day.

    After our unfulfilling nap, we head to Banana Bar again for dinner and plan to meet up with Bob and his friends for another night out. (To provide a bit of background on these boys, they are all from Amsterdam and are some of the coolest, most fun-loving and all around interesting guys I’ve ever met. One thing I’ve learned about the Dutch is their English is spectacular which is convenient for me because I know approximately 7 Dutch words. I was lucky enough to have individual conversations with each of the 6 guys at some point throughout the holiday learning something new about each of them. I enjoyed every moment I spent with these guys…which is ultimately why I spent the rest of my evenings in Koh Phi Phi by their side. They also love to dance as much as I do, so it was always great company!) We spend some time dancing and talking at Banana Bar and then once again head back to Slinky’s. I’m realizing we didn’t spend a whole lot of time anywhere else on this island. After some drinking and dancing at Slinky’s, Bob and I part ways from the group and enjoy a nice, moonlit walk down the beach (sounds cliché, I know). We take a seat in the sand, face the ocean and begin to talk about various things. The mosquitos are relentless in this country and are taking no mercy on us. I scratch my legs lightly, willing the bugs to leave us alone. Eventually they win and I succumb…I can no longer take their incessant bites. Bob and I agree to call it a night. I tell him goodnight and make my way back to my hotel room where my head hits the sheets instantly.

    Day 4 in Koh Phi Phi: When Kirstie first arrived to Koh Phi Phi, she mentioned a 6 hour booze cruise that looked spectacular. Not needing anymore details, we all agreed to join her and our other friend Vaughan on this excursion…and I’ll forever be grateful we did.

    The girls and I climb out of bed, play around for a few hours and then get ready for our booze cruise adventure. We walk up to the pier, where we were instructed to meet, right at 12:45PM, and wait patiently to be given further instructions. We gather around a fountain with about 15 other westerners and begin to make small talk asking where everyone is from. We are finally given the go-ahead to get on our sailboat. We climb aboard, get our belongings situated below deck and grab a drink from the bartender/co-captain. The sailboat begins to sail towards Monkey Beach, our first stop. The boat stops about 200 meters shy of the shore (honestly, I’m just guessing…I have no real concept of distance…especially when attempting to use the metric system). We are given the option to take a kayak to the island or swim. Naturally I choose to swim. I jump in and begin to make my way towards the beach. I always seem to be rushing ahead of the girls and waiting for them patiently at our destination. After almost 4 months of spending practically every waking second with them, you’d think I’d learn to slow down. With no regards to their whereabouts, I scramble onto the shore and walk towards the other people on the island. Given the name of the beach, it’s easy to infer that I was about to get up close and personal with some monkeys. I come across a few grapes left behind by some other monkeys so I pick them up and hand them to the nearest monkey. He snatches them from my hands and starts to peel off the skin searching for the juicy center. I mean, I get it, that’s my favorite part of the grape too. I continue to walk along the shore watching the monkeys as they interact with the humans and their fellow monkeys. I finally catch up with the girls. Lauren has cut several of her toes pretty badly on some coral while she was swimming to the shore. I’ll give it to her, she was such a trooper throughout the entire cruise…she barely complained. Although, after a bit of research about coral cuts, she was mildly concerned that she was going to start growing coral out of her toes. (It’s been 3 weeks since our vacation and I can safely say she does not have coral growing out of ANY toes). We spend about 15 minutes on the island taking pictures and watching the monkeys play around. Sara and Lauren jump on the kayak with Bob (the owner of the booze cruise, not my handsome, new, Dutch friend) while I swim back to the boat, a more difficult task this time around.

    Everyone climbs aboard the boat and again we’re off to the next site…cliff jumping. After a short trip, we arrive to our destination. The boat stops and once again, I jump out into the ocean below with my make-shift Crocs on my feet and begin to swim towards the opening point of the cliff. The waves are pounding against the rocks as I try and grab onto the rope to help guide me up along the path. I finally reach ground and begin to make my way up the rocks trying to reach the point where I will jump. Not certain if it was nerves, adrenaline or combination of both, but I feel my body quake every step of the way. I climb up and around the rocks and finally reach the jumping spot. Seth (the bartender/co-captain) is standing next to the jumping point guiding the jumpers. I finally reach him. I gently grab his arm to provide some balance; he politely tells me he is going to hold onto my arm so I don’t pull him in with me. Dave (the other bartender/co-captain) has my GoPro in hand and asks me if I’m ready. I’m not but there’s no backing out now. Dave begins to count down “3-2-1!” I jump in and within seconds feel the cool water beneath me. As soon as I reach the surface, I realize I’m disappointed I didn’t go for the higher jump. I climb back on the boat, watch the rest of the jumpers and then again we’re off.
    The next item on the agenda was Maya Beach, where “The Beach” with Leonardo DiCaprio was filmed. Again, the boat stopped short of the entrance point forcing us to either swim or take the kayak. I jump back into the water and again begin to swim. This swim was far more grueling than the previous ones. The current is getting stronger and my feeble attempt at a freestyle swim is getting me nowhere. With my GoPro and snorkel in each hand, it’s becoming more and more difficult to reach the rope. I flip over and begin to swim on my back. I’m exhausted and slightly concerned that my body will give up on me before I make it to the ladder. Austin, the intern for Bob’s booze cruise, is swimming beside me making sure I don’t drown and continuously asking me if he can help carry anything (clearly sensing my struggle). I’m stubborn and unwilling to be “that girl”. I push myself and continue to swim FINALLY reaching the rope ladder. I begin to climb and make it to the top of the landing. I catch my breath and head towards the beach. Maya Beach is a spectacular site even with the massive amount of tourists scurrying around. Our time is limited so we take as many pictures, selfies and videos as we can before we travel back to the boat.
    Our last stop before heading back to the main island was a cave filled with ancient history…a truly remarkable site. After learning about the drawings within the cave, we make our way back towards the boat to enjoy a beautiful, unique sunset.
    The trip back to the mainland was filled with rough waters and more booze. I sat there with my drink in hand, reliving the day in my head over and over. Tonight was supposed to be our last night on the island. I don’t know if it was the alcohol, or the beautiful men, or the post-vacation depression that was creeping in on us, but we weren’t ready to say goodbye to Koh Phi Phi and I wasn’t ready to say goodbye to Bob. I’m not sure who said it first but someone throws out the idea of staying another night. By this point, we had heard so many negative things about Phuket that there was no desire to spend our New Year’s Eve there. Kirstie and Vaughan had already made their decision, they were staying. Lauren and Sara spend all of 5 minutes pondering the idea and decide we’re staying too! I’m elated!The booze cruise comes to an unwanted end. We scamper off the boat and head in the direction of our hotel. My body is dragging and in dire need of some rest but there is no stopping me from meeting up with my new friends for the night. I shower quickly and rush through the clothes and makeup routine. I get a message from Bob telling me to meet them at Banana Bar. The girls opt out on joining me for the evening (they obviously hadn’t caught on just yet to how amazing all of these guys are), so I mix a drink at the hotel, and make my way to the 7-Eleven for a beer. Alcohol becomes far too pricey on the islands, so you learn how to drink on a budget. I walk to Banana Bar and begin the walk up the spiral staircase again…by now, I could do this with my eyes closed. I search around for the boys and finally spot them on the rooftop portion of the bar. We climb down the ladder and onto the dance floor once again. One of the boys offers me a drink from their bucket…I happily accept it. Bob tells me he and his friends have adopted our idea of drinking on a budget. They’ve purchased whiskey to mix their own drinks with…wise decision. As I mentioned earlier, it rains often in this country. It begins to rain heavily. Assuming it would stop, we take cover under a portion of the bar. Onno (one of Bob’s friends…and a dancing machine) decides he isn’t going to let a little rain stop him. He steps onto the dance floor and begins to move. Watching Onno dance is one of my favorite things to do! He even turned a few of my quirky moves into something worth watching. I have a huge smile on my face just typing this!  We dance in the rain for what seems like hours. Not a care in the world. My hair is a mess, my clothes are drenched and I’m having the time of my life dancing with these remarkable Dutchmen. A few hours later, we leave Banana Bar in search of…well I’m not quite sure what we were in search of…I was just along for the ride. We walk to a hotel that has a pool (majority of them did not have pools) and just as people are about to jump in, a Thai guard of some sorts promptly puts a stop to our fun. We turn back and separate from his friends again. Bob walks me back to my hotel room and we say goodnight.

    Day 5 in Koh Phi Phi:

    I’m the first one to wake up again…this will probably always be the case. The lack of sleep is wearing on me. I can feel my body giving up, yearning for more than 5 hours of restless sleep, but it’s New Year’s Eve…I can’t stop now. It’s our last night on Koh Phi Phi and it’s my last night with Bob.

    We all feel like we’ve been hit by a bus and checkout is at 11:00AM…a daunting thought. Lauren slowly crawls back under the covers while Sara and I pack our belongings, sifting through the sand and trash that has accumulated in our room over the past 5 days. Now that we’ve decided to stay for another night, we have the task of trying to transport our luggage to the new accommodation. We leave Lauren to her slumber and search for this new accommodation that Carter has been gracious enough to help get squared away for us. The group he is staying with had some people back out at the last minute, so, conveniently there was enough space for us to stay…and coincidentally enough, the accommodation was located right next to our hotel. Now that we’ve located the new hotel, we can finish packing and check out. Sara and I do our best attempt to ask the lady at the new hotel if we could keep our luggage there until Carter arrived. After pantomiming, repeating ourselves over and over again in English (hoping it would make sense each time) and speaking the little bit of Thai we know, we decide to give up…our request to leave our belongings there has gone unanswered. Thankfully the owner of the previous hotel was courteous enough to allow us to leave our luggage there while we waited for Carter.

    We go eat breakfast and begin conversing with two Australian boys at the table next to us. They share some funny, entertaining and graphic stories with us that can only be shared in the more personal version of this story. We spend a couple of hours chatting with them, trying to kill time while we wait for Carter to arrive. Carter isn’t scheduled to arrive until after 3:00PM and it was barely 12:00PM. We eventually say goodbye to the Australians and head towards the beach.

    After a couple of hours of lounging in the shade on the beach, we begin daydreaming of various meals we would like to eat. We finally agree to drag ourselves to the nearest restaurant and order some food. We wait…and wait…and wait. Eventually I walk towards the ocean to make a call to Carter, hoping that he is close to the island. I spot Bob walking in my direction. He stops in front of me just as my conversation ends with Carter. He begins to explain that his phone is resting in a bag of rice (‘haha enough for 10 phones’).  I’m confused…I’m not quite certain what has happened to his phone. He starts to tell me he thought I was joking when I suggested that he put his phone in rice. Apparently the night before, when we were attempting to go swimming, his phone was in a bag that ultimately became soaked with water, subsequently drenching his phone with water. He was now phoneless. All of this had slipped my mind. I let him know that we are going to eat but that I would like to meet up with him soon. He tells me he will be at the beach all day. I walk back to the girls who have grown increasingly impatient. After 30 minutes of waiting, a waiter still has not come by to collect our order. We agree to go back to the place that never fails us when it comes to food and entertainment…Banana Bar. While we are there, Carter calls letting us know he has safely made it to the island and is checking in. Sara and Lauren go scope out the new establishment while I wait for our food to arrive.  After I finish eating, I gather up my stuff to check out the room we were going to be staying in for the night. We’ve stayed in some pretty interesting places over the course of the past 4 months in Thailand, but this one was the most…unique. I assume it would be categorized as a hostel because it has 5 bunk beds in one room and 1 bathroom to share. At this point, I didn’t care where we stayed so I wasn’t going to complain. All I want to do is get back out to the beach. Carter and his friend, Matt, help me carry our luggage from one hotel to the other so I could branch away from the girls and not feel guilty for leaving them to handle this task on their own. I rush out to the beach where I spend some sober time with Bob and his friends. After a couple of hours, I get a phone call from Lauren. The girls are unhappy and mildly traumatized by our sleeping situation. I can hear by the tone of her voice that they want to look for somewhere else to stay…I can’t really blame them. We were halfway certain there was a permanent bloodstain on the toilet seat. I excuse myself from the conversation with the boys and tell them I will meet up with them later. I walk back to the hostel and the girls and I begin our search for a different accommodation. Each place we come by is booked and I’m not surprised…it is New Year’s Eve after all. We continue walking, hoping that we’ll come across something, but we come up empty handed each time. We walk to the end of the island and realize EVERYTHING is booked…except for the Holiday Inn that would set us back about 25,000BHT a night (it’s possible I’m making that number up but either way, it was insanely expensive). Finally realizing our fate for the evening is with that hostel, we succumb and drag ourselves back.

    I shower (a truly repulsive task) and get ready for my first New Year’s Eve overseas…

    To my surprise, I’ve become even closer to the girls over the past 5 days, our bond has intensified and here they are with me as we approach the New Year. They’ve conceded and allowed both of my wishes to come true…to be with them and him right at midnight. I’m not one to find an interest in a holiday romance, but he is worth my time. We arrive at Banana Bar and I start making my way around the crowded bar searching for Bob. I can’t find him but I know that if he’s here, he’ll find me. Within moments of being there, I see him stand up in the rooftop portion of the bar and wave down at me. I make my way up the stairs with the girls following closely behind me. He and his friends are drinking in an area of the rooftop that conveniently holds enough people for all of us to fit comfortably.  We say our hellos and realize it is quickly approaching midnight. Fireworks are going off intermittently…I stand on the bench to get a better view.  The countdown has begun. “3-2-1!” I’m holding my phone up, the video is recording…I’m trying to capture everyone on film as we start 2015. The clock strikes 12:00AM, we yell out loudly “Happy New Year!” in unison and begin to hug each other fiercely…smiles from ear to ear…elated to be where we are at that very moment. The guys have purchased a bottle of champagne to toast to the New Year! We say a cheer and merrily sip on the glorious champagne. At this point, I don’t think I could be any happier.  We continue to watch the fireworks go off into the dark sky above and eventually make our way down to the beach where the beach party is in full motion. We dance like it’s the only thing we know how to do! I’m in a constant state of bliss but time is passing too quickly. Before I know it, it’s 4:00AM. The girls and I have to be up at 7:00AM to make our 9:00AM ferry to Phuket so I’m beginning to get a bit anxious about the amount of sleep I’m going to get. Bob walks me back to the hostel and we stand outside saying our goodbyes…but I can’t bring myself to say a final goodbye just yet. We turn around and stroll back to the beach…walking, talking and eating the most delicious ham, egg, cheese, lettuce and tomato sandwich I’ve had in Thailand.  5:00AM quickly approaches and I realize that I SERIOUSLY need to go to sleep. I’m beyond shocked I’ve stayed up this late especially considering the amount of sleep I’ve forfeited over the past 4 nights. Bob begins to walk me back to the hostel again.  We run into his friends along the way and I tell them goodbye and profess my drunken love for each of them for the 10th time that night. Someone brings up the idea of me and the girls visiting Amsterdam and I already begin making plans in my head. I finally make it back to the room and crash out within minutes.

    Adios Koh Phi Phi:After an hour and a half of sleep, I’m wondering how I’m even able to function properly. I muster up the energy to tear myself away from my bed and pack up my belongings to leave this glorious island.

    After 10 pages of typing, I don’t think I can type anymore…and this is the condensed version of the story. If I were reading this, I would have likely given up about 9 pages ago… so for now, I’m going to throw in the towel. There’s so much more to say, so I’ll start back where I left off on the next blog. The girls and I are going to have another relaxing weekend so hopefully it won’t take me another month to post.

    I assume it’s natural that I want to justify my behavior or maybe I shouldn’t be so forthcoming for the world to see, but this is me. Life won’t always be this way…I won’t always have these opportunities…and I won’t always be this young. I assure you this adventure of mine is not all about partying. We have come to a group consensus that there will be no drinking in January and over halfway through the month, we have maintained this promise.

  • Never A Dull Moment

    I’m trying to appreciate each moment for what it has to offer and realize that my time here will eventually come to an end, so I need to bask in the joys this beautiful country has to offer while I can. I’ve been itching to travel more frequently and now that we have settled at school, we are able to take advantage of the weekends and holidays. I have a slew of other countries I want to explore but unfortunately I have not checked any of those off of my list yet. It seems as though I am going to have to hold off on those trips until the semester has come to an end in March…I think that’s when it ends…we can’t know. I wish I could adequately portray the schedule system at this school. It is not my intent for this to come off as criticism but here is an example of how things work: Tuesday morning I was scheduled to have class at 8:20am, I waited in the classroom for 20 minutes (a 50 minute class) and no one ever showed up. Unbeknownst to me, the students were attending a school activity. That’s not uncommon and I’m certainly not complaining. I actually quite enjoy the lax attitude here. I would say one of the only problems with students attending activities versus coming to class (aside from not learning) is that I can potentially go a few weeks without seeing a certain class and when I see them again, they are a little more disorderly. It is as though I need to earn their respect all over again.

    Teaching always keeps me on my toes…and I absolutely love it! I don’t say that because that’s what I’m obligated to say due to the fact that I’m blogging about teaching abroad. I say that because it’s how I feel. I love my students. I also love that a laugh is universal. They may not always know what I’m saying and I certainly don’t always know what they are saying, but when we laugh, we make a connection. The other day, I was having my students play a game where I hold up a flashcard with a vocabulary word that we’ve discussed in class; the students were expected to write out a sentence properly to match the vocabulary word to earn a point for their team. They were broken up into 3 teams so there were 3 students up at the board at a time. At the very end of class, I played for the team with the least amount of points. I lost one round and won the second round. All of the students were actively engaged and cheering and laughing loudly. There are times when some classes are better than others and there are times I want to pull my hair out and find one of those canes the Thai teachers have, but overall, this is better than anything I’d be doing back home.

    I don’t really relish the notion of publicizing some of my thoughts, but I think it’s good to make this as candid as I can. I’m not one to sugarcoat things or pretend that things are perfect when they aren’t. To preface, I am still undeniably happy and my qualms are probably 100% normal and possibly warranted. 3 months in and I’ve hit a few road blocks. It’s important to understand that prior to teaching abroad I had applied for the Peace Corps. I was looking to do good in the world, make a positive change in myself and feel like I was making a positive impact on others. I’d like to think I’m making a positive impact on my students and that I’m helping them in their path towards success, but some days it’s hard to know if that’s actually the case. I’ve contemplated doing volunteer work but it’s easy to find other things to occupy my times especially since I am constantly busy.

    There is barely downtime. For someone who is used to a good amount of downtime AND alone time, I’m often times not in my element. Because I’m so accustomed to being by myself in situations and making my own plans, I know some of my more unpleasant characteristics are surfacing more frequently. I like for things to be done a certain way and for at least a basic plan to be set (in all facets of even relatively simple and mundane things). So, when that’s not the case, I become impatient and irritable. I’m sure this has aggravated the girls (and likely others) on more than one occasion; and one might say this is a perfect opportunity to try and modify those characteristics, but that it’s easier said than done. Ideally I’d like to travel as much as I feasibly can and part of me would like to travel alone. Being alone has its advantages and disadvantages in situations like this, again, I don’t want this to be misconstrued, I love the girls and often times would be lost without them. They have brought an immeasurable amount of joy and happiness and worth into this whole experience, but sometimes I just want to go out and get lost and force myself to find my way back (hypothetically speaking).  Throughout my experience here in Thailand so far, I have relied on people to get me to and from locations: which stop to take on the sky train, which van will get me to which island, the destination to tell the taxi driver. More often than not, I have other people delineating these tasks. I remember visiting a boyfriend in New York City about 2 years ago and I opted to take the subway instead of a taxi to get into the city because I appreciated the challenge it presented (and it was substantially cheaper). He gave me directions, I looked up directions online and asked a gentleman I met on the airtran for some directions, but it was up to me to follow them accurately. I carried my oversized suitcase up and down each set up stairs, hopped from the airtran to the subway, from subway to subway and hurried through the massive crowds of pedestrians. When I finally arrived to his apartment, I was immensely proud of myself. It sounds simple but I had virtually done it on my own and it was the first time I had done anything like that. Of course I’ve done bigger things, like move across the world, but at the time, that was an achievement and the feeling was grand. I want more of that. I want that sense of pride and accomplishment, to make plans or break them on my own accord, to not have to worry what someone else wants. I understand what I’m asking for sounds selfish and for those who are doing this alone, I might appear to be an ingrate, but as I’ve stated…I prefer to be candid.

    Before moving to Thailand, I toyed around with the idea of staying here for one semester or two. There are so many things I want to do and see in this world and as cliché as it sounds, I feel like my age is going to have some bearing on my path after Thailand as well as the amount of time I stay in Thailand. I have looked into moving to New Zealand and doing menial work there for a few months. I’ve also thought about teaching in Indonesia for a year. I’ve contemplated moving to Bangkok and teaching there or potentially finding another job that can keep me here for another 6 months or so. Greenheart Travel offers so many programs and they don’t make it easy to decide which to choose from because they all have their appeals. I don’t have a lot of time to decide but I will weigh out my options and hopefully figure it out sooner rather than later. As much as I miss America and family and friends, I’m not ready to go back…I’m not sure when I’ll be ready to go back.

    Points worth mentioning:

    It was actually cold the other morning which is a baffling thought. These are the winter months and I was told to expect cooler weather but I didn’t expect it to be this cool…jacket worthy weather. My bathroom is practically outside so showering in the morning and attempting to shave your legs is not the most enjoyable task.  It made me realize that I don’t miss cold weather at all!

    The girls and I thoroughly enjoyed our weekend in Koh Samed. I prefer that island over Koh Chang which is convenient for us because Koh Samed it closer proximity wise. We took a 250 BHT, 3 hour van ride to the ferry, a 50 BHT, 30 minute ferry to the island and a 300 BHT, 10 minute taxi ride to our hotel. Prices get exponentially more expensive on the islands. Prior to our taxi ride to the hotel, we stopped at a café that was serving American cuisine, indulged in some fabulous food (that may or may not have been the cause of my Thai tummy that hit me about 16 hours later) and met some people from other countries that were staying in the hostel right next to the café. We got to the hotel, relaxed for a bit, I attended a fire show on the beach and then we started getting ready for the night. We met up with some people but branched off shortly after to attend a Reggae bar where we listened to a Thai man sing various Bob Marley songs…which he did quite well.  We danced, we sang and we watched an overly intoxicated girl get up and dance with some of the dancers on stage. Some of our friends from the TESOL course met up with us where we ventured off to the next bar…Naga Bar. They busted out the party paint and of course we indulged. The paint comes off your skin easily but not your clothes. I ruined my skirt and shirt and designated those as the clothes I wear for the paint parties we attend in the future. We washed off some of the paint by taking a late-night swim in the ocean. The water is perfect all the time…not too warm and not too cold! We staggered back to our hotel around4am (ask most of my friends back home and they’ll tell you I never stay up that late).  We woke up the next morning and that’s when my Thai Tummy hit me. I spent majority of the day in bed and stayed in for the night.

    As much fun as we have had, this is where my self-reflection rears its ugly head. I don’t want every weekend to be about partying and playing. This is something that is in my control so we were more low-key this weekend. We watched a movie, shopped some in Bangkok and were productive with schoolwork and cleaning. I’m likely going to sign up for some tutoring throughout the week which will occupy my time in a more suitable manner.

    I mentioned a repugnant smell in one of my previous posts. I never figured out the origin of that smell was but I believe it was the cause of persistent headaches so I have been moved to another room. It is still located close to the girls’ rooms so I am very happy.

    Sara’s birthday was yesterday so Sara, Carter, Lauren and I celebrated by going out to eat at one of the restaurants down the street from us. We picked this place specifically because we thought we might have the opportunity to participate in some karaoke. As soon as we arrived, we asked if we would be able to sing…we were immediately shot down. A band was set to play so we wouldn’t be able to steal the mic for a song. We sat down, ordered our beer tower, som tum, 4 cashew nut chicken entrees and waited for our food to arrive. Shortly into our dinner, the band started to sing “Happy Birthday” to Sara, apparently they had gotten wind of our interest to sing so they asked us if we wanted to come give it a go. The girls and I rushed on stage, leaving Carter behind to capture our lovely (or terrible) voices on film. After the first song, I’m surprised they let us stick around for a second one. We honestly kinda sucked, but we had a good time and they were so kind to let us play around for a little while. Sometimes I crave to live in Bangkok. I’ve always yearned for the “Big City” life and I believe living there would fulfil that dream, but it’s things like: waiters and waitresses giving Sara a Doraemon (the popular cartoon here in Thailand) stuffed animal, letting us come on stage and sing a few songs, taking an endless amount of pictures for us and smiling the whole time they do it, that make me appreciate what we have by being some of the only foreigners in this city. The attitude in Bangkok is a little harsher at times and the kindness and generosity is not as prevalent. That isn’t to say there aren’t kind Thais in Bangkok though.  Thais in our city don’t have to constantly deal with a plethora of pesky foreigners, so I understand why the ones in Bangkok have a little bit more of a bite to them. I assume that’s at least partially how it goes for most big cities.

    I think I have a slight idea of what it feels like to be famous…a D-list celebrity, but definitely a celebrity.  Today we had another school activity so Carter and Sara dressed up in traditional Thai wear and Lauren and I hung back in our regular clothes…we were like the back-up dancers, if you will. There were booths set up all over the school for the students to attend. We had to sign cards (it felt like signing autographs) for students to indicate that they had made it to our booth. Towards the end of the day, we walked to most of the surrounding booths and took a copious amount of pictures with the students and teachers. By time we were finished, my cheeks were sore and new wrinkles were forming from smiling so much. 3 months in, it still catches me off guard when people want to take pictures with us, but we have fun!

    It doesn’t feel like Christmas at all! It’s currently 82 degrees here while it is 43 degrees back home. My siblings will be home for Christmas so I’m sad that I’ll miss them but a Skyping session is a must! With a 13 hour time difference and the fact that I will be working on Christmas day, finding the time to complete this task will be quite the accomplishment. We leave for Koh Phi Phi on Friday where we will spend a few days before we make it over to Phuket for New Years. Some of the other people from the TESOL course will be there as well so it will be another reunion of sorts! I’m definitely looking forward to the break!

  • Pure Happiness

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    I’ve been living in Thailand for about two months now and teaching for just over a month. I think it’s fair to say there is never a dull moment in this country, and as cliché as it sounds, every adventure feels more amazing than the last. I’ve concluded the reason for this is because all of these adventures are things I’ve never experienced before. I’ve never particularly relished the idea of riding a motorcycle for an extended period of time…or any amount of time, for that matter. I’ve never been filmed for a promo video, and I’ve certainly never ridden on the back of an elephant before…until I moved to Thailand.

    While the girls and I were still in the States, the program manager of Greenheart Travel asked us if we would like to participate in filming a short video to help inspire others to come teach in Thailand. Delighted and flattered by the offer, we said yes! The videographer is the South African, Liam, I mentioned in one of my earlier blogs. He was a joy to work with and frequently encouraged me to branch out of my comfort zone when it came to ordering Thai food. Because of him, I was comfortably able to peel the skin off of a whole, cooked fish yesterday…and aside from the tiny, nearly translucent bones, that fish was excellent!  In addition to him promoting peculiar food choices into my diet, the wonderful video he created is something that I will look back on years from now and remember some of the more exciting times of that first month.

    Just a few weeks ago, the girls and I met a kind Australian who has been living in Thailand for many years now. He is getting ready to move back to Australia but took it upon himself to show us around a bit of the country before his departure. He has a beautiful black and red Ducati that he had to ship back to Australia in preparation for his move and asked me if I wanted to join him in the 45 minute commute to take his bike to get boxed up. I feel a little like Jim Carey in the “Yes Man” where he says “yes” to everything!  Aside from eating scorpions and roaches, I’ve been inclined to say “yes” often in this country (nothing bad, mom and dad). So, naturally I said yes to his invitation. He helped me safely secure my helmet on my head, got on to his bike and I climbed on behind him.  As we made our way down the garage, my anxiety began to build. Drivers in Thailand…there should be warning label as you enter the country and a page on Wikipedia about them. They are reckless, crazy, impulsive and daring drivers. Scott (the Australian) pulled up to our first intersection and took a left. Feeling a bit uneasy and apprehensive, we approached the first bridge. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been skydiving twice, jumped off bridges and crave a good adventure every now and again, so I’m familiar with feelings of adrenaline and rush, but driving up the first massive bridge was more terrifying and thrilling than jumping out of a plane ever was (not to belittle skydiving because that was freaking awesome!). I’m quite certain I said a prayer or two while we were coasting along that bridge. We weaved in and out of lanes, drove between two vehicles countless times (like most of the drivers do here) and oddly enough my comfort level began to rise. I started to thoroughly enjoy the ride and the 45 minutes quickly came to an end.

    The following week we planned our first real vacation. We were finally going to see one of the various islands in Thailand…Koh Chang. The ferry to Koh Chang stops at 7:00pm and with a 6 hour commute to the ferry, we knew we would not make it in time to arrive in Koh Chang on Friday night. We figured the only logical thing to do would be to spend a night in the “Sin City” of Thailand…Pattaya…When in Rome, am I right?  I didn’t have much time to formulate a proper opinion of the city, but its most popular street merely reminded me of Khao San Road in Bangkok, the only difference is that Pattaya is located next to the water. We spent an evening out on the town, checked a few things off our Thailand bucket list, and woke up early the following morning to get a proper head start on the day.  We ate an “American Breakfast” that was mediocre at best, stopped by the beach and began our road trip again.

    In Thai, Koh means island and Chang means elephant, so, appropriately we planned a daytrip to ride and bathe elephants. I have my reservations about riding elephants here for obvious reasons.  A part of me did not want to condone the attraction and a part of me found awe and excitement in the opportunity to experience such an extraordinary thing. I decided to base my decision off of the establishment when we arrived to determine how the elephants were being treated and tended to.  Although nothing compares to an animal being able to live its life in its natural state and habitat, the elephants at this camp seem to have proper treatment and there were positive reviews by others.  We arrived shortly after our anticipated appointment time so we were rushed onto the elephants. We traveled slowly through the jungle as the elephants moved gracefully along, each step more meticulous than the last.  The gentleman leading us climbed off the elephant and in broken English asked me if I wanted to sit directly behind the elephant’s ears. I clambered past the bar holding me in my original seat, gently sat down, felt the rough skin beneath my hands and the coarse hair between my fingers. Shamefully my elephant’s name escapes my memory, but I assure you, I thanked her numerous times for letting us ride her (I even attempted to give her a feeble head massage). After an hour, the trip came to an end. We climbed off the elephants and lead them towards the area where we fed them bananas before taking a short walk to the stream of water where we were instructed to “bathe” one of the other elephants. It wasn’t so much a bath as it was climbing back on an elephant while she submerged herself and me into the cold water.  I definitely preferred the bathing over the riding. The elephants seem to be more themselves when they are in the water and ours had quite the personality with comical pictures to prove such.

    We finished our Saturday evening getting situated into our rooms and eating food at the restaurant located at our accommodation. This accommodation was unlike any place I’ve ever stayed at. I can safely say my expectations for hotels have drastically decreased after living in Thailand for a couple of months. Our room was a bungalow style room with a bed, a mosquito net to cover the bed, a fan, a toilet you flush with a bucket of water, and a cold shower. I never got used to the cold shower, but I’d do it all over again especially for the price of $15 USD a night. Sunday was a lovely day spent snorkeling on some of the small islands off of Koh Chang. I’m still hoping to get my scuba certification…it’s just a matter of finding the time at this point.

    One of the amazing things about this country is how outrageously cheap things are.  When I first arrived, I was still doing the conversion in my head back to the US dollar, so my first real meal in Thailand cost me 750 BHT (about $23). The girls and I still laugh appallingly at our amateur mistake. With a little bit of time, I quickly dropped the mentality of doing the conversion, and I aim not to spend 750 BHT on dinner unless it’s for Friendsgiving in Bangkok or to celebrate a special occasion. Something you would feel comfortable spending $30 for in the States, you wouldn’t dream of spending even half the price on in Thailand. Naturally my salary has decreased from what I was making back home which also inevitably determines how I am going to spend my money. I mentioned in my last blog that I was sleeping with the air con off to conserve my money…that proved to be a success because I spent a measly $9 on electricity and water for the month of November!

    A few things about prices here:

    You HAVE to buy water. Even Thais don’t drink the tap water. A standard 12oz bottle costs 7BHT or $0.21. You can also refill it for 1BHT or $0.03; lunch by our school costs about 37BHT (if you get a coke or water too) or $1.13; hotel rooms vary especially depending on the time frame you will be traveling, but the aforementioned bungalow cost us 700BHT, divide that by two and you’re spending $10.65 for a night in paradise.

    A few moments worthy of mentioning:

    A couple of weeks ago, majority of the students had to take a Monk test so most of the teachers and some of the remaining students took a bus trip to the local sunflower field. It was a hot, sweaty and beautiful experience full of countless photos. Cut to, the girls and I are now located on some billboard with the Mayor of Pathum Thani somewhere throughout this province.

    I finally got Thai Tummy…I figure I’m lucky to have evaded it for as long as l did, but it just made me miss American food more. I like the Thai food and sometimes love it, but I’ll likely do ample research to locate the place with the best cheese burgers in America and fly there before I make my way back to Texas. I’ve also gained weight which irks me on a completely different level.

    I came across starbucks coffee and peanut butter on craigslist while searching for a mini fridge.

    Lauren and I wore the wrong Thai outfits to school one day…were blatantly talked about…we laughed it off and haven’t worn those outfits since.

    We witnessed students get whipped at school in front of their 2,999 peers for getting caught with cigarettes, skipping school and for girls wearing skirts at the incorrect length. The teachers walk around with sticks that look similar to flimsy bamboo and use it on the students if they are misbehaving. I’ve seen one of the teachers use it on a few of my students for being late to class and they typically laugh about it and scamper to their seats. I have few qualms with either the whipping in front of the peers or the teachers using canes (if that’s what we can call them). I love (even if it’s a love-hate relationship at times) all of my students so the school and teachers are obviously doing something right!

    Teaching is so much fun! Thais take their holidays seriously so with the King’s upcoming birthday, there are various activities held giving the students ample opportunity to avoid going to class. Only 5 girls showed up for my 6th period class today so we sat and chatted for 2 hours. I taught them the words “or” and “both”. For example: I asked them “Team Edward” OR “Team Jacob”. I learned that 4 of the five were “Team Jacob” and they learned that Teacher Holly likes BOTH. Of course every day of teaching isn’t like that and some days are unsuccessful, but overall I continue to see progress in most of my students on a regular basis. All of my students make me laugh, make me want to pull my hair out, and make me want to be a better person…I love them! And I think I’ve learned about 50% of their names!

    Today we donated dry goods to the local monks in celebration of the King’s birthday. 999 of the boys from the Pathum Thani province offered to live the life of a monk for 5 days including shaving their hair and eyebrows off also in honor of the King. Interesting facts about the King: He turns 87 tomorrow; he is the longest reigning current monarch in the world…he has reigned since June 9, 1946 (that’s 68 years!!!!! just let that sink in for a moment); and he is the only monarch to be born in the US. There’s a little Thai history lesson for ya!

    I wasn’t home for Thanksgiving but was lucky enough to meet up with a large group of people from our TESOL course for the weekend. A couple of days of unadulterated laughter, excessive drinking, sunbathing, fish sucking the dead skin off my feet, shopping, and good Mexican food were all I needed after a long month of teaching.

    We leave tomorrow morning for Koh Samet where we will meet a few of our friends and spend a couple of days relaxing on the beach. I received a perfect email from one of my best friends this morning explaining that God has lead me right where I need to be. I feel at peace and ease with myself. I don’t have that restless, stuck feeling I had just a few months ago. I’m unequivocally happy.


  • The Life of a Teacher Abroad

    Thailand…the place where old men smokes cigarettes on school campus…the place where students are given 200 BHT to speak English in front of 3000 other students…the place where fruit smells like feet but tastes like sweet, caramelized onions (so I’ve heard)…the place where street food is on every corner…the place where you can’t go two miles without seeing a breathtaking temple…the place where condensed milk is preferred over regular milk in your overly sweetened coffee (shout out, Carter)…the place where toilet paper and soap are HOT commodities…the place where you sweat all day in your clothes but know you still have a few good wears before you need to wash them again…Thailand…the place I currently call home.

    The girls and I have moved into our respective rooms at our accommodation. They are similar to dorm rooms and Lauren and I still debate whether or not it would be considered living alone (we definitely live alone!). The rooms are small, quaint and have a distinct, almost repugnant, odor to them. Although we have aircon (air conditioning) in our rooms, I sleep without it to prevent from having a big electricity bill (my father will be both shocked and proud when he reads this 😉 ). The money saved will hopefully be used towards travel expenses. Although I have not been able to travel too far just yet, plans are in the making. We’re looking at booking flights to Phuket for New Years to join several others from our TESOL course.

    Conveniently for us girls, we all three live on the same floor, practically right next to one another. For someone who cherishes alone time, normally this might be considered a nuisance for me; however, I am elated to live so close to them. If I need to say something to them and the Wi-Fi is acting up (because it typically is), then I just walk on over, crawl on to their bed and the conversation begins. I don’t think I’ve ever spent as much time with people as I have these two girls over the past month and a half, and I truly cherish our time together. We take a van to work every day and some days the girls and I don’t ride together. The other morning, Sara took the early van ride and I couldn’t wait to see and hug her. That might sound peculiar and a bit obsessive, but emotions have been running high lately. One of our dear friends from the TESOL course was deported a couple of weeks ago. The news came out of nowhere and has been a really disheartening ordeal. Immigration came to his school his very first day of class. He and one of his fellow teachers had an education visa and you are unable to work on an education visa; however, if you get caught with it, you typically aren’t kicked out of the country (at least in Thailand). The details are still a little fuzzy and in my opinion, there is something far deeper going on. I’m sure we’ll never know.

    Where one boy leaves the story (but not our hearts), another one enters. Carter. Carter is the only other American teacher at our school. He reminds me of my little brother in an uncanny and endearing way. I am sitting in our teachers’ office and I actually just watched him sing the U.S. National Anthem to one of the Thai assistants…he’s a good guy. He’s also our other partner-in-crime and although I’m sure he’s not ecstatic about all the estrogen he’s surrounded by, I think he’s pretty happy to have us around.

    In addition to Carter, there are other foreigner teachers but from all over. There is a teacher from Japan, one from China, five from the Philippines, and one from Uganda. People from all over the world teaching in one school…I’m always learning something new about other cultures and countries and I absolutely love it!

    I’ve been teaching for almost 2 weeks now, and the time in the classroom is always entertaining. On the first day of school, the Vice Director asked me, Lauren, Carter and Sara to get on stage in front of the other teachers and the 3,000 students to introduce ourselves. Normally a daunting task, I’d like to think I pulled it off well. The Vice Director pulled the most proficient English speaking student on stage and had him ask us some questions: “How old are you?” and “Are you single?”…these are the two most common questions asked by students and adults alike in Thailand. They sure know how to get right to the point.

    Inside the classroom, the students are typically a bit rambunctious and majority of them don’t speak English well. I have 14 classes in total but technically only 7 different ones because I see each of the classes twice throughout the week. Right now, I’m in the process of learning how to effectively teach each of the different levels by attempting to make lessons and activities fun and engaging. I, like most people who decide to teach abroad, want to see an improvement in each of my students (all 245+ of them). When I see the light bulb turn on in a brain every now and then, I am overwhelmed with feelings of pride and gratification. I’m also attempting to learn all of my students’ names…well, nicknames. Nicknames are very common in Thailand, and I’m still not exactly sure why. My assumption is because their names are difficult to remember or pronounce for foreigners, and while this is true, their nicknames are also difficult to remember or pronounce. Nonetheless, I am going to give it my all and show them that I am really trying…even when I’m battling the incessant giggles from saying a student’s nickname incorrectly. Speaking of, I’m “Teacher Holly”…instead of teacher “Teacher Hillary”. This wise suggestion was given to me by one of the Thai assistants that I adore very much. There was a constant struggle to try and say my name correctly, so one day, she said, “Can I call you Teacher Holly instead?” Of course I said yes. It’s catching on quite nicely, and I almost always respond when a student calls out “Teacher Holly!” as I’m walking by.

    When the semester first began, the directors asked me and the girls to participate in the Loy Krathong festival. It is rare that you turn down a request or invitation so we instinctively obliged. Loy Krathong is celebrated once a year and is intended to send away misfortune and bad things from the past and ask for good things in the future by launching your krathong into the river, pond or canal. The krathongs are typically a slice of a banana trunk decorated elaborately with a banana leaf, a candle, incense sticks, flowers and one even had small little fireworks on it. It is customary to dress up in traditional Thai costumes…so that is exactly what we did. After two hours of sweating, smiling and waving, we climbed off the decorated truck and made our way home so we could participate in sending off our krathongs at the nearest temple.

    Things are never boring here. I’ve almost forgotten what it’s like to go home and turn on the TV and just relax. Right now, I’m about to get ready to jump on a bus, head to the local mall and grab a bite to eat with my crew. I can’t complain.

  • Graduation, Goodbyes and whole lot of LOVE

    Yesterday was a long, emotional, heart-breaking, phenomenal, awe-inspiring and exciting day.  We had our TESOL end of course test early in the morning, ate as a group by the beach, and then came back to have our incredibly informal graduation (my kind of graduation). Being out of school for several years now has allowed me to forget what it feels like to be nervous for a test. I’m sure just like in college, I didn’t study near as much as I should have, but I passed! I have completed the TESOL course…I am now officially considered a teacher!

    After we finished our graduation ceremony, we headed back to Baan Ton Mai (the apartment-type establishment that we have been staying at for the past month). Majority of the group headed to Bangkok yesterday because they are working with a specific, larger agency and have to go through an orientation before they begin teaching. They packed up the rest of their belongings while we waited to send them off with a proper goodbye. Aside from telling my students goodbye when I head back to the states (or to my next country), telling these people goodbye will be one of the hardest things I’ll have to do.  I have made a huge connection with some of them that will stay with me forever. We laughed together, cried together, shared some of our most intimate stories and drank more Chang and Hong Thong than we probably should have. I didn’t think I’d cry as I hugged them all goodbye, but looking back, I realize that was very naïve of me. I looked at Richard, one of the first people I met when I arrived (and definitely one of my favorites), and the tears started flowing uncontrollably. The tears kept falling as I hugged everyone tightly and wished them all good luck.

    Earlier this week, the owner of Xplore Asia asked for some of the teachers that would still be here for the remainder of the week to join some Thai children for a free dinner.  These children are in an English hospitality camp and part of that meant to spend some time with an English-speaking person for a couple of hours. The dinner was scheduled for 5:30pm on Wednesday and our group heading to Bangkok was set to leave at 5:00pm.  After telling my friends goodbye, the last thing I wanted to do was put on a happy face and try and fight through a language barrier. Little did I know at the time, this will be one of the best experiences I will have in Thailand. I unequivocally believe that and I still have many months left in this beautiful country.

    As the group of 8 of us girls walked up to the hotel, I was still wiping away residual tears from our recent goodbyes. We spoke to the leader of the English camp, were given brief instructions on what to do with our group of 3 or 4 teenage Thai children, and eventually met my group of 4 kids (1 boy and 3 girls). I, not normally a timid person, felt a bit shy meeting these children. What was I going to say to them? How was I going to try and create conversation when I knew their English was mediocre at best? The shyness dissipated after our first selfie.

    We walked to the night market (one of my favorite places) a couple of blocks from the hotel. There is one girl in particular, Joy is her name (age 16), from the group who was not shy and took a liking to me instantly.  She held my hand as we walked to the market. She asked me questions in English and I tried to respond with as simple an answer as possible. One of the first questions she asked me was “Why did you come to Thailand?” I laughed internally at that question because I knew the answer was even too difficult to articulate to myself. I told her I was there to teach Thai children, which of course is true, but there is more to it than that. Joy and I are now friends on Facebook so I’m confident that her English will improve rapidly and I’m hopeful that we will be able to remain friends and one day I can explain the full reason for my desires to teach in Thailand. I think by then, I’ll know the answer myself.

    Still in that phase of trying to work through the awkwardness of the language barrier, I asked the kids if they wanted to get some food. One of the girls, Bew is her name (Thai children come up with nicknames for themselves and I believe Bew is intended to be short for “beautiful”), stopped to get rotee. Not to get too far off topic, but rotees are one of my favorite food items here in Thailand. They are similar to crepes with egg and banana in them and doused with chocolate sauce and some other type of Carnation sweet goodness. I ate a couple of pieces of Bew’s Rotee and we kept walking, making the occasional small talk. The kids then asked me if I like (insert Thai food word here). I had no idea what they were talking about but I heard the word “spicy” come out of their mouths. I smiled brightly and exclaimed, “yes, I love spicy!” The search began for this specific dish! I’m still not certain of the name of the entree that we were looking for but we ended up eating an amazing meal! I’ve mentioned in previous posts that I have not been too happy with the food here, but I have definitely adjusted accordingly and I’m starting to crave it on a regular basis now. Joy took the lead and picked out what we were going to eat. She ordered two things of papaya salad (one with egg), and two different chicken dishes. One of the chicken dishes was different parts of the chicken cut up and covered in enchanting spices and sauce. The other chicken dish was chicken cut finely mixed with herbs, red onion, and what appeared to be fresh mint leaves scattered throughout.  This was what I would compare to lettuce wraps back in the states but exponentially better!  We used cabbage as the bottom piece, placed a leaf of some sort, a piece of cucumber and small pieces of what appeared to be asparagus and then sprinkled the chicken on top. Without a doubt, this has been the best thing I’ve eat here in Thailand so far…my stomach is grumbling just thinking about it now. Alongside each of these dishes, Joy ordered a side of sticky rice for the 5 of us. We began to eat family style, reaching in and picking out small portions of each and putting them onto our plates. We began to speak more English and Thai, laughing intermittently at the lack of understanding and my total inability to say the Thai words properly. Thais use a great deal of inflection on their words. One word could have 5 different meanings if you don’t say the inflection just as it is supposed to sound. That is a major challenge!  They taught me many Thai words, regrettably most I’ve already forgotten, but it was inspiring watching them teach ME.  I also learned that Ping (age 15: the youngest girl), is very good at Math, that is her favorite subject. Joy and I agreed that we weren’t too good at math. 

    Thais are known for their friendly demeanor and I have experienced that routinely throughout my stay here up to this point. One thing I both appreciated greatly and found very interesting was how much they wanted to take care of me. At this particular restaurant, there was a little tray stand next to our table that held a bucket of ice. Joy stood up, grabbed our glasses and began to fill them with ice and water. She did this several times throughout the duration of the meal. I enjoy taking care of people too and I wanted them to know I wanted to return the act of their kindness. I noticed their water glasses were getting low so I took it upon myself to refill their glasses with ice and water. I’m not sure if I have mentioned this in the past, but it is customary for Thais to “Y” as a form of respect. As soon as I refilled their water, I noticed them “Y” me. I’ve been respected in the states but there is no feeling that compares to watching these extraordinary children show me this form of respect.

    After dinner, we continued to walk around the night market. There are many stands set up with various items from clothes (the infamous elephant pants) to jewelry to backpacks to souvenirs. Bew stopped to look at some bracelets. I offered to purchase each of the girls a bracelet and Teung (the boy’s name-age 17)) anything he’d like. I’m certain they didn’t understand what I was saying, but Joy said that Bew was going to buy the bracelet. I tried repeatedly to pay for it but that just wasn’t happening. We walked ahead a bit and Bew came over and gave me the bracelet. Unbeknownst to me, she was trying to buy this for me all along.  Reeling from the emotions of having to say goodbye to my friends hours earlier, I began to cry again. This time tears of joy.  So much love expressed in such a short amount of time. What I had expected to be one of my worst days in Thailand quickly turned into one of the best days I’ve had in my entire life. We continued our walk and Joy asked me to spell my name in her phone. I typed it out and she disappeared into the crowd of people. She came back shortly with a key chain with my name on it. We walked further and Joy bought me another small souvenir representing a temple in Hua Hin, that will undoubtedly hold a spot on a shelf in all of my homes to come.  I love these children, and not because they showered me in gifts, but because they showed me respect, kindness and best of all…love. As our time together came to an end, I believe I hugged them each 10 times and cried at least 5 more. When I walked over to Tueng (who was the quietest the whole night) to give him a hug, he hugged me, picked me up and squeezed me tightly. We laughed and laughed (I’m sure I probably started crying again), and we said our goodbyes. If this evening was at all indicative of what is to come for my teaching experience, I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to leave Thailand.

     We have received confirmation that we will indeed be placed in Rangsit. We leave, by van, on Saturday morning to meet our agent to go over our upcoming living accommodations and discuss a bit more about the school.

  • Our TESOL course is coming to an end

    Our 3 day weekend has come and gone. It has been almost a month now since I arrived in Thailand which means the TESOL course is almost over. Nearly everyone out of our group has been offered a placement throughout various parts of the country. We’ve all grown immensely fond of one another and often refer to ourselves as a big family…I guess that’s what happens when you put people with similar interests into a not-so-tightly confined area. We’ve tried to capitalize on our last few days together by spending as much time together doing fun, festive activities. We’ve ventured off to more bars (not solely the two Xplore Asia suggested), piled up into a songtaew as a big group and made the hour long journey to Khao Sam Roi, and we’ve had several “last suppers” together.

    Khao Sam Roi is a spectacular national park with a beautiful beach (where I had my “I’m living in THAILAND!” moment), a cave that represents just how beautiful God’s work really is, and some pretty sharp rocks…I’ve never seen such a bloody hike.  As I type this, that empty feeling creeps into my heart and the sadness brews as I think about being away from everyone. It’s hard to think this may be the last time I spend time with everyone in the same city. We talk about having “Friendsgiving” and possibly meeting up in the Islands at some point, but that will be quite the feat to gather 27 people up and meet in one specific location.

    The reality is setting in and I’m realizing that challenges might come a little more freely now that we won’t be surrounded by a plethora of English-speaking westerners. I welcome these challenges and although it’s disheartening being separated from everyone, I know this next chapter is going to be extraordinary. The girls and I found out recently that we will placed at the same Thai government high school together in a city called Rangsit. From the looks of it, it’s an urban city about an hour north of Bangkok. We still aren’t certain when school starts or when we will leave Hua Hin and we could potentially leave as early as Wednesday (two days from now). The planner in me is freaking out a bit and I’m incredibly anxious to get “settled” somewhere more permanent, but I believe I’m starting the grasp the meaning of “Thai Time”.  “Thai Time” loosely means that Thais do things on their own time…typically taking longer than initially stated. Hopefully that will mean I am forced to learn to be a little more patient…Lord knows patience is not my best virtue.

    We find out more information tomorrow and eventually we’ll make the trek to our next location…and I’m greatly looking forward to it!

  • Adventures on Adventures

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    The Grand Palace

    To pick up where I left off…we had our night of rest in Bangkok, woke up the next morning and got ready to go to the massive market within the city. We were smarter this time around and broke off into smaller groups. Us 3 girls and 3 guys. This day felt substantially more hot and humid than the previous day…and midway through our exploration, the group knew my sentiments on staying there too much longer. I was ready to go…ready to finally submerge myself in our infinity pool (albeit the infinity pool that overlooked piles of construction material from a job that had been long since abandoned–at least it appeared that way). We finally all agreed to leave. Rode the sky train back to our stop and walked the rest of the way to the hotel. We spent some much needed time by the pool and then decided it was time to start getting ready. Tonight was going to be my first night out in Bangkok. I’m not sure if you’ve been warned about Bangkok and the crazy things it can lead you to…well I have. Before actually arriving to Thailand, I was apprehensive to even explore much of the night life in any parts of Thailand. A foreign country and a petite, young female…didn’t seem like a likely combination. After arriving in Thailand, I realized there were cautious, like-minded people who felt the same way but still wanted to peruse the city…so that is what we did. With about 20 of us in tow, we got aboard the sky train, stopped at the appropriate stop, separated into two tuk tuks (and one motor bike–Richard), and finally arrived at the infamous Khaosan Road! We had heard about these “buckets” which I guess are just really strong drinks in a bucket that looks like a bucket you’d build a sandcastle with. So we searched profusely for a place that could accommodate 20 people to sit down and share a bucket with the person next to them (or not share it). Within 10 minutes and the constant sound of “pop” along the way–which was merely intended as a sign of invitation to see a ping pong show (I’ll let you Google that one), we found our place. I’ll be honest…the night was pretty simple and not filled with too much debauchery and everyone made it back alive. However, we did hear that one of the guys brought a Thai girl home…we’re still not certain which guy…or if it was even true. I wouldn’t really be surprised either way.

    The next morning was Sunday morning, which meant our last full day in Bangkok. We still hadn’t made it to Grand Palace and I wasn’t leaving until we got to explore it. With another small group, and a bit of a hangover, we got in our tuk tuks and raced (not literally…but I kinda wish they would have) to the Grand Palace. This is a sight everyone needs to see if visiting Thailand. It truly is magnificent and nothing that pictures can portray alone. We walked around there for an hour or so until our tummies started rumbling, indicating their desire for some food.

    Now I would consider myself an adventurous person–moving to Thailand is indicative of that–but I feel like I’m losing some of my adventurousness…when it comes to food. I’ve had family and friends back home ask me how things are going. My response is typically something as follows: “I’m doing really well and having a great time…but I don’t like the food”. People say that will change in due time and I slowly think it’s starting to. I’m trying random items from street stands (as long as they look relatively fresh) and more frequently trying meals that aren’t the standard fried rice with chicken…partially in thanks to the South African, videographer– Liam (I’ll talk about that later on).

    We traveled back to the hotel to get ready for our meeting in preparation to depart to Hua Hin the following day.

    We’ve have now made it to Hua Hin and our classes have begun for the TESOL course. At this point, we still don’t know where we will be placed to teach. Fingers will remain crossed in hopes that Sara, Lauren and I end up relatively close to one another. Our choices for placement are south Thailand, north Thailand or Bangkok. I’m pretty confident I would be happy with any of those. I believe the three areas have their distinct pros and cons, but a wonderful learning and unique cultural experience within each of them!

    Our first day in Hua Hin was spent getting everything situated. We went to the local mall and Tesco (which is like a Wal-Mart or Costco) to gather all the necessary items for the next month…to take back to our accommodation…where Lauren and I share a king-size bed…and a very tiny bathroom with an interesting shower with no door and just a couple of feet from the toilet.

  • First Few Days in Bangkok

    There’s so much going on it’s so difficult to try and express every activity I’m doing. This place is definitely a culture shock, but in the most AMAZING way! I got in late Wednesday evening (on the 24th). Even after two days here, I’m still so confused by the time and can’t seem to get my sleeping schedule right. I was up at 4AM yesterday and here I am writing my blog at 12:15AM. A bunch of the group (approximately 17 and counting) is already here so we have acquainted ourselves well with one another and decided to explore this massive city together. We walked to the river (I need to look up the name of it), and when I say walked, I must try and accurately describe this scene. It was probably a mile (or 1.6 Km) long walk from point A to point B. The city is overcrowded with Thai people, selling their various items on the street from fried chicken balls to small trinkets of all sorts. When we arrived to the river, we agreed as a whole to take a boat ride around the river where we were able to see temples, buildings, a Ferris wheel, and the places people call home. I will always try to remember what that was like where on one side of the river there was a beautiful, clean and pristine temple and adjacent to that was a home (presumably) that was falling apart. We were ultimately dropped off at the Wat Arun temple, truly a magnificent sight. We shopped, took silly pictures, climbed the temple, and took more pictures. We proceeded to get back in another boat to go literally just across the river to make our way over to the infamous, reclining Buddha to explore some more (and take more amazing pictures). On a brief stop to get some pineapple, at one of the street stands, is where I met the lovely snake in the picture below. The gentleman (assumingly the owner of the snake) first asked me if I wanted to pet the snake…I obliged. Then he wrapped the snake around my neck…I obliged. He told my new friends to take pictures with the snake wrapped around me…they obliged. This brave man put the snakes mouth into his mouth…the pictures started snapping more rapidly now. He gently took the snake from me and told me that experience was going to cost me 360 BHT (about $11 USD)…I felt cheated…but I obliged.

    Lastly we made the long walk to the Grand Palace. At the last minute, we decided against going into the Grand Palace and hold off until another day because some were not adequately dressed and we were all exhausted. We rounded up some taxis and tuk tuks to take us back to the hotel. Bartered for a while to get a good rate for both and finally started to make our way back “home”. People will say it is hot and humid in Bangkok and to wear insect repellant. They are right about all of the above. By the time we got back, my clothes were drenched in sweat and my legs were (are) COVERED in

    bug bites (mildly unnerving to say the least). Drained by the day’s festivities, Lauren, Sara and I decided a nap was in order. That nap lead to 5 hours of sleep and missing the opportunity to go out with the group for a night out in Bangkok. Oh well…there is always tomorrow!

  • So It Begins in Thailand

    Here I am…sitting on the floor while my phone charges…waiting at the Chicago O’Hare international airport…making last minute phone calls to family and friends before my phone takes a brief sabbatical. This is finally starting to become real! As per expected, I’ve gone through the myriad of emotions that I anticipated to feel, from sadness, to excitement, to anxiety, to feeling like I’m truly losing my mind, to second guessing this decision of mine to teach abroad. I will say, I wish my partners in crime (Lauren and Sara) were by my side right now, but I think a large part of this experience is doing this kind of stuff on my own and learning to endure these emotions without any interruptions. I’ve had several suggestions for this blog, and as I take those into consideration, my main focus is to try my best to capture and articulate how I’m feeling at monumental (or not so monumental) moments of this journey. Although I will not take it to the full level of a journal, that is virtually what this is going to become for me, so I can look back 10 years from now and I try and put myself back in that exact moment in that exact place. I probably won’t ever forget the color of navy blue the floor is and how old I felt standing up from sitting criss-crossed applesauce for an hour.

    #travHILwithme